First Birthday Note from Papa (Part One)

Nindita, Papa knows that there’s no way you can understand or appreciate this now, but one day you will, one day when you are able to read and to fathom.

You were born at 5.30 a.m. on this day, a year ago. Your birth was not easy, even though many people said it was quite fast for first delivery. Your Mama was such a hard worker. The day before, she woke up early to attend staff morning prayer and still carried on her work at the office until afternoon when she found out that there was already a fleck. From the office we took hours driving to the airport to pick up grandma from Palembang. When we got home Mama did not take a rest at all. She was busy unpacking and making sure all things were in place. Unlike Papa, Mama couldn't stand messiness.

Mama’s first contraction was at 9.30 p.m. She was in pain every time it came. Papa brought Mama to Siloam Hospital at around 1 a.m. after the contractions became regular in every five minutes. Papa could not tell you too many details, but that four and a half hours period was one of the scariest moments in Papa’s life. Papa knew that anything could happen during the labor and delivery and Papa had to fight the thoughts of all worst possibilities. But Papa should stay strong for Mama and you. Papa held Mama’s hand tightly and encouraged her with all positive words available on Papa’s mind. I tell you, your Mama was a good fighter. She was able to manage her pain and followed the instructions from the doctor well. She barely cried during the labor knowing that crying would only drain her energy. After more than four hours fighting, Mama did not have any strength left to push you out. Remember, Mama did not sleep for almost twenty four hours. And the doctor decided that you had to be delivered by ventouse or vacuum pump.

Papa did not know how to explain the feeling when Papa saw you for the very first time. You looked so tiny and weak, 3.45 kilograms and 51 centimeters. At first you were held upside down by the doctor, and after he tapped your back, you began to make your first sound. Your cry wasn't too loud , but it was more than enough for Papa and Mama. Papa kissed Mama and thanked her for hours of hardship in delivering you. Welcome to the world our beloved daughter, Nindita Erin Pradipta.